Fresh from midnight prayer

Random Thoughts 6/30/08 1:20 am
Man-O-Man, God is so awesome! Midnight prayer was something else. I went in with somewhat of heaviness on me but after some time in repentance it was lifted off. This evening, it was raining all night and my mind tried to get me to use that as an excuse not to go to prayer. Because of that battle alone, I went with some expectation and that was blown out of the water.
In my previous journal entry, I shared about my experience this morning at the beginning of 8:45 service. And tonight at prayer I realized why I had to go through that, because if I didn’t then I would not have been able to receive what God showed me on tonight. As I was praying, I was asking God to help me take the limits off of him, take him out of the box. All things are possible with him and without him nothing is possible. This means that EVERYTHING is possible with him; there is not a single thing that we face or desire that is too hard for our God. I don’t think we always realize that or our prayers would be bolder, our actions would be bolder. I’m not talking about asking him for a bunch of stuff, I’m talking about souls. Why is it that we aren’t bolder in our prayers for the salvation of the lost? Why are we not more bold in approaching those who are lost and presenting them with the Gospel? Do we not believe God is able? Are we looking at it as something we can do or can’t do? The scripture says, “with God”, all things are possible; meaning we can’t do it ourselves. We confuse our ability with his ability. I’ll speak for myself…I would get nervous and reclusive when God tells me to share the Gospel with someone. I did that because I thought “I” was the one who would be speaking, “I” felt inadequate to bring someone to salvation. I was right in that but wrong in the one who was speaking. I’m just a vessel and in Luke 12:12 Jesus says that the Holy Spirit will give you the words to say. Just open your mouth. I pray that God’s people would get a revelation of what it means to take the limits off of God and all things are possible with him. I pray that it would spark a new boldness in us to go and proclaim his Gospel and pray like never before. TAKE THE LIMITS OFF!!! NO LIMITS, NO BOUNDARIES!!
As I began to quiet down in my prayer time, I heard the Holy Spirit say, “let her pray”, referring to my prayer partner Ms. Kim. Since it has only been the two of us at prayer, I have taken the role to lead us in corporate prayer at the end. I didn’t really question it, I just remained quiet, waiting for clarity; and then it came. He said, I’m going to use her to confirm what you prayed tonight, it will be a confirmation of what you said and heard. I heeded to it and allowed her to pray and sure enough the very thing I wrote about above, he confirmed through her, along with some other things pertaining to ministry. Then she turned it back over to me to close us out. When I finished praying, I was just in astonishment. Looking at where God has brought me in my prayer life and relationship with him, oh my goodness. As we ended, I remember saying to myself, I’m not ready to go. I guess God heard me and put me back to work because no sooner than I said that, Ms. Kim asked me to pray over her son. Talk about stepping up and stepping out…without hesitation I was obedient. As they were leaving, Gregory said, “bye Pastor Emmanuel”. I can’t explain how it felt but I’m embracing what God spoke….
God Bless!