This is the first public announcement about my ordination but its not to magnify the event but the God behind it. Yes, I am being ordained as a minister and an elder on February 8. As I entered this final week of preparation the Holy Spirit spoke "service". That is what He wanted me to focus on this week and it was confirmed through an e-mail I recieved that morning. It was a testimony about a young lady who partnered with the Holy Spirit to bless a complete stranger at Food Lion. Also, that morning during my staff meeting at work, because we're a Christian organization we always have prayer and scripture at the start of the meetings. The scripture that was given was 1 Thessalonians 5:18 "give thanks in all circustances". The person giving the scripture also recited the verse before and after "pray continually" and "don't quench the Holy Spirit". The last verse about the Holy Spirit stuck with me the rest of the day. Monday night we were having our "Seed Faith Conference" at church and after service the Holy Spirit told me to say these words to a young lady in the ministry. Immediately I began to ask if this was really God or flesh and asked for confirmation. He confirmed it when he had the young lady approach me to speak and in disobedience I chose not to say what the Spirit spoke. Immediate regret sank in and that moment stayed with me the remainder of the night and into the next day.
I prayed and asked God if the door was still open for me to share that word and it was. The next day as I reflected on the previous night's events the Holy Spirit brough to rememberance the scripture that came yesterday, "don't quench the Holy Spirit". He was showing me that when I walk in disobedience I quench/stop what He desires to do. So as I went to service Tuesday night I was looking to see if she would be there and sure enough she was there. I didn't know why she needed to hear it but because the Holy Spirit spoke it I knew she needed it. So after service I caught up with her. First, I had to apologize to her for my disobedience the previous night and then shared with her what the Spirit spoke to me. As soon as the words came out of my mouth, she began to tear up and cry, telling me how much she needed to hear that.
I was floored as I hugged her again and walked away. God's grace and mercy. How many people have not gotten what they needed because I chose to be selfish and remain in my comfort zone and not speak what the Spirit said! I know how unworthy I am but for that very reason I draw closer to the Father.
As I prepare for this elevation, I can tell you my focus has not been on preaching the gospel (the charisma) but on character. I have spent more time in prayer dealing with my issues and sins then the word to speak to the people. I understand that Sunday's sermon is with purpose and not to be taken lightly but I also understand that my life will be magnified and after reading 1 Timothy, I'm more concerned about character than charisma. I've told many people, "how can anyone desire to be a minister or the title I should say?" Looking at 1 Timothy and throughout the Word where it talks about the standard and attacks and everything else. If God didn't call me, I definately would not have pursued it.
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I think that was a wonderful word from the lord every word from the lord is wonderful but to add to this i was talking to someone and i had to make important descisson and their were option and i like both of them but their were strings attached to the option but i alkso know what the father had told me but there was a part of me that did not want to obey so i did not take the options that was before me b/c it would have been out of my charcter if anybody would have know me to be a child of God we need to watch what we say and do just b/c we never know who may be watching us and this was not nothing bad but i just could not deal with and to see how far he brought me to be trap to satify the flesh
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